I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Dear Nagi,
Thank you for sharing your loss of beautiful Dozer. I cried reading your story. The love our fur-babies bring each & every day is like no other love. Both Dozer & you were lucky to have each other. RIP Dozer
Nagi i am just so sorry for your loss of such a beautiful and faithful dog.
What a wonderful life Dozer had, together you made each other’s heart sing. When the time is right your heart will sing again.
I can’t read this yet through my tears. Just big hugs from me in New Zealand. xx🐾🐾
Oh Nagi san. Deeply sorry for your loss. Dozer was such a lucky boy to have you as his best friend. RIP little man. Do take care of yourself too Nagi san.
God bless you for loving your Doser so completely, for giving him such a beautiful life. Love and sorrow are carved from the same cup. As you love deeply you are creating a vessel for your deepest sorrow, but also know that you can replace it with love once again. Love the memories made, love the connection that existed and can never be stolen by death or reduced by time. Grieve and heal in your own time, but know in time the sorrow will be replaced by love once again.
Pain will ease little by little.
Memories will always be with you. 🥰
Dear Nagi
I felt so sad for you, after reading this post.
It is so devastating to lose a loved furry family member.
You will experience immense sadness for quite awhile. Remember ‘to love is to grieve’!
Kind regards
Joanne
So sorry for your loss, in time they will be happy tears for Dozer Xx
Dearest Nagi . Saying goodbye is so painful..your beautiful boy
has done his life purpose
A wonderful companion your boy . So sad for you
I’m so sorry Nagi.
Our fur friends give us so much joy and happiness not to mention unconditional love but when they leave us it is so so hard.
Sending you healing thoughts.
Ross
Special animals in our life take a little bit of our heart when their time in the physical world is over. Dozer was a good dog 🩷 thank you for sharing your life with him
Dear Nagi, my heart goes out to you. Losing your beautiful Dozer is extremely hard but I’m hoping the wonderful memories you have will help get you through this difficult time. You never get over losing someone special but you learn how to live without them. Wishing you lots of love and peace. Anne
I have never in my 58 years cried over a dog I have never met, but Dozer has tears streaming down my face.
Wishing you all the strength you can muster to get through these first few weeks without your boy, Nagi, and hoping you find some comfort in the love and memories.
DEAREST Nagi, so-so,sorry about Dozer. We, your readers,, loved him in our own way. Always looked to se how he was. i still miss my dog gone 18 months ago, No easy way. As you say, remember him with love.
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my 17 year old fur baby two weeks ago. It’s so hard but the joy they have bought you while you had them is worth it. xx
So sorry for your loss 💔 all your stories and pics have shared Dozer’s beautiful soul. He will be sadly missed. 🌹🩵
What a beautiful letter to Dozer.
Thank you for sharing you memories over the years.
Your words are so beautiful, like a prayer for Dozer & shows what a jewel of a human heart you have. You will always dream & think of him, just as I always still dream of my beautiful little white poodle, Ellie. But, you were very fortunate to have had him to love. Lol, Rosemary
❤️❤️❤️❤️
I’m deeply sorry for your loss, Nagi. He was an amazing one. May the cherished memories of Dozer bring you comfort in this time of sorrow xx