I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
I had been hoping you’d be able to bring Dozer home but it was not to be. He was in the safest place to be to see him through, and of course, you were with him to the end. Nothing will make his passing better though I hope you can reflect on the utter love and joy you gave each other and that you did the very best for him all his life. He was a lucky pup. Take care. xx
I don’t know what to say but I don’t want to say nothing. He adored you, you adored him. Home for him was wherever you were. So that you were with him in his final days and moments he was home, he was adored, he maybe was a little spoilt (to make you smile briefly). Your love for him knew no bounds and you gave your all for him. Now, you rest, as he is resting, or maybe running free at the dog beach in the sky eating whatever he wants with no chance of choking or a bad tummy or poop after! It doesn’t lessen the pain or grief but now he is free from his struggles and will be forever, wherever you are, in your heart.
I am sorry to hear about Dozer. Saying good bye to a family member is one of the most heartbreaking things to do. But you were there!
Dozer knows you were there. Your letter to Dozer was beautiful and you will be able to look at his pictures again… in time. Love and hugs Rozalee
I feel your pain The love of a dog is special. Take care
Dozer was loved by many in this world you and Dozer were so blessed to find each other the love compassion being beside each other was unconditional he knew how much you loved him Nagi we all feel deeply for you bless you take care 🌺🙏🐾🐾🌟
So sorry for your loss, it’s enough to break anyone’s heart to lose a best friend. Bless your heart for giving him his best life!
I knew the day would come when I would read this – but nothing prepares you for it. My heart breaks with yours, Nagi. Thank you for sharing Dozer with all of us – He will be terribly missed.
I’m so sorry Nagi, but thank you so much for sharing Dozer with us.
Sending you love from the Philippines.
I am so sad to hear this news but know he lived a great ,fulfilled life with you and thanks for sharing him with all of us xxx
Oh I share your heartache beautiful girl. Wonderful that u were by his side until he closed his eyes. It would have made it so much easier and believe me it will help you in your grief that you gave him your all. I am so sorry
Much love & thoughts to you Nahi, – he was your everything as you were this.
xx
Oh Nagi, so sad 😞 Dozer loved you so much. You did everything & more that you could do. We’ll all miss him. You & everyone will remember all those good times. All those beautiful photo’s you posted, you were beautiful together. Karen 😢💞
Dear Nagi, thinking of you and your home and work family.
Dozer was such a beautiful boy and you had a wonderful 14 years together.
Fly high beautiful boy 🌈🌈🌈
So sorry for your loss. God bless.
I am so very sorry Nagi, I have lost so many fur babies in my 80 years and know the pain…try to remember the precious times and know others are thinking about you…much love…
The love between a dog and their person is a warm comfort feeling. That feeling never leaves you but there’s just an added tingle of sadness. Im thinking of you Nagi and am grateful to have found you and Dozer. XO
I’m so sorry Nagi for you Loss 🥲we all loved Dozer💙 Rest in peace Dozer boy you will forever be missed 💕
Read a children’s book called ‘Cry heart, but never break’. It may be what you need right now, when Dozer has become a star in the cosmos
I am so sorry, Nagi! We all felt like we knew Dozer, through your writing,
Lots of love
❤️Love and loss so entwined. My heart goes out to you.