I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Dearest Nagi,
Thank you for letting us share the mutual love of you and Dozer. Now we shed tears with you.
Take your time, take care of you.
I am simply heartbroken for you,
Dearest Nagi,
I am so heartbroken 💔 reading your loving and ‘all-knowing’ words and peeling onions here 😭
I have to say, you have theee BEST collection of photos with your pet that I have ever seen!
I agree with you – you’ll have the biggest smile one day when you look back on all your memories as Dozer’s Mum.
Rest in Love Dozer and a huge virtual hug to you Nagi 🤗 💕 💞
Flooding my floor with tears. A dogs love is completely unconditional. Imagine a world where humans were more like dogs, how wonderful would that be. So sorry for your loss and thank you Dozer for bringing endless joy. I smile every time I see your face when I open your recipe books.
So sorry for your loss of Dozer and sending you big hugs.
Those we loved do not go away, they walk beside us every day, Unseen, unheard, so loved, so missed, so very dear.
Love and prayers for you Nagi, and blessings for Dozer in his new world. xxx
I am so sorry to hear this news.
You will see him again one day.
He will be missed by everyone here.
Nagi that is a wonderful letter and I can’t stop crying myself it is so hard all my love
Thank you Nagi for sharing your special friendship with the beautiful Dozer all these years. We will miss him & his input so much but know that he will be holding doggy heavens catering to a very high standard.
Nagi, you are such an amazing talented and strong woman. You also have an such a wonderful outlook on life. It doesn’t matter what we look like how much we weigh what matters it to be true to yourself show respect and decency toward others keep your wicked sense of humour and follow your heart, Allow as much time as you need to greive? You will be fine lovely lady ì
I have no words! I am so very sad for you Sending big hugs!
Nagi, I can only imagine the pain in your heart right now as I read your final letter with tears in my eyes to your beautiful boy Dozer.
Take the time to enjoy the memories and heal for now and know they are alot of people around the world who are thinking of you and sharing in your grief. Well done in being such a beautiful Mum to your Dozer. 🩵🩷
Right now Nagi nothing people say or do will make the pain less bearable for you. You loved him with all your heart, and gave him a wonderful life. The joy he brought to your life will be with you forever.
Take care dear Nagi. ❤️❤️❤️
Hugs, my thoughts are with you. They give so much love, it hurts in the end. He brought joy to many more than you, in your stories. I am a furever doggo person. Let your love for Dozer live with a new fur friend when the time is right.
Nagi, I’m so very sorry. Dozer was a lucky boy to have you with him through the years. The comfort and joy you brought to each other is something rare in today’s world. We will miss Dozer, and also pray for you at this very sad time. Take care of yourself as best you can. Hugs to you.
Nagi, I’m so very sorry to hear of the passing of your beloved Dozer. He will always be with you in spirit and in memory.
RIP Dozer and take care of yourself Nagi 💙
Thank you for sharing your beautiful boy with us and letting us in to your greatest heartbreak 💔
Take care Nagi x
We will miss you Dozer. xx
Nagi, thank you for sharing his funny antics and beautiful heart with us all. You had a precious and unique bond. It will never break. Sending you love, hugs and licks to help heal your hurt.
So sorry for your loss. I know the pain you are going through. I lost my dog who I had had for 18 years. But it does get easier.
Dearest Nagi
I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your beloved Dozer. He clearly was a special boy and your life has been so blessed having him with you. Sending you lots of love at this difficult time. Fly high Dozer XXX