I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
My sincere condolences Nagi.
Rest peacefully Dozer 💔
So very sorry to hear your beautiful Dozer has passed. Just sending you a very big hug. Please take all the time you need & be very gentle with yourself.
My thoughts and prayers for comfort and peace for you.. Loosing a furbaby is always so hard. Thank you for sharing him with us. That was the part of your post I always looked, at even if a recipe didn’t interest me. Thank you
I’m so sad for you Nagi Dozer is resting now 💔Thinking of you
I am so sorry for your loss, always having had animals it never gets easier to say goodbye. What a wonderful tribute you have written
My thoughts are with you ❤️
Thank you for sharing Dozer with us all! I am so sorry for your sadness and loss Nagi. Take care of you now.
This post made me cry so hard. I’m so sorry for your loss Nagi. I have all your dozer posts since I began cooking with you. I looked forward to seeing him. It made my day. You will see him again. You were the bestest mom . As much joy,Doser gave you You also gave to him. He felt your love at the end as he trotted over the bridge .Remember, the Rainbow Bridge it will bring you some comfort.
So sorry for your loss sending love and hugs from Canada…
Vale Dozer. Your life made Nagi so happy. I always enjoyed reading her delightful posts. But I know what is is to lose a precious one. Go forward Nagi. xoxo
Dear Nagi,
Don’t ever let anyone minimise your love for Dozer. Please take your time, have many many photos of him around you to ease the loss. The smallest reminders will set you off on the ocean of grief that is….when you least expect it. It hurts, but as you said, the pain is as great as the love ❤️ Be kind to yourself.
Ps I cried big ugly tears when I saw your post last night. I can only imagine how tough you are doing it right now❤️
Nagi, I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. You were blessed to have each other. And you always will. HUGS!
I’m at work, I dare not read this now as I know it will result in a 53 year old man blubbering like a child at his desk.
I’ve loved watching him since the start and have dreaded the day this message would appear in my inbox.
You have my most sincere condolences.
I know it’s not the result you hoped for but ultimately it is the result we all get.
Now you can bring him home.
Dearest Nagi un abrazo enorme, Dozer will always be with you…
That’s beautiful
Oh, I am sitting here reading your beautiful final message to Dozer with tears streaming down my face.
The two of you had magical adventures together. You both loved each other so much. Dozer knew that you all you wanted was for him to recover and he tried so hard.
Every time, as he was waking, he felt your incredible love for him, and when he opened his eyes, there you were – the most precious thing in his life.
The wonderful team at SASH made sure he was always comfortable and I know there would have been special pats each time they passed.
Try to remember the so many great times you had together and how much joy you two gave to the rest of us
Dear Nagi, so deeply sorry for the loss of your beloved furkid Dozer, we will all miss him. He keeps your love with him as you do with his. xoxo
Dearest Nagi – my heart goes out to you at this very sad time. Allow yourself time to grieve for your beloved Dozer. In time you’ll be able to laugh again at all the photos – videos and memories. Dozer will always be with you – in your heart. He’ll be waiting for you on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge – l truly believe that – l know all my babies are waiting for me. Look after yourself Nagi and let your friends and family put their arms around you 💖💙💖💙
Dear Nagi,
I think there may well be tears throughout the whole world today.
Don’t think about what you wanted to say to him and didn’t get the chance to – I’m sure he already knew.
May all the beautiful memories sustain you at this difficult time. He will always be with you – he’s now just in another dimension. Take care
I am so sorry for your loss. Dozer will always live in your heart and mind. Nothing like loving a dog and heartbreak when you are without. Rest in Peace Dozer – always will be in our heart❤️🙏
My deepest sympathy on the death of Dozer. He was synonymous with your name. Take care .❤️
Shedding tears and feeling so sad for you and the loss of your beautiful boy. ❤️🌈 Our furbabies are Family too and when they are no longer here it leaves a big hole in our hearts and lives.