I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
So sorry for your loss
My heart is breaking for you 💔
I’m so sorry to hear the news Nagi, take care. What a wonderful Mum you were to Dozer! x
So sorry for your loss your beautiful Dozer xx
Dozer was a dog in a million he deserves to be mourned by us all such was his impact on all who shared a window into his life. It was a wonderful life loved by his Mum. He will always be in your heart – he’ll never leave it.
I’m so so sorry for your loss
Dozer is with you as you will find out in time to come
Grief… grief theyveayvisclive with nowhere to go
Thinking of you xx
My deepest condolences. He was loved by so very many. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!!
I know your sorrow. I have had a 16 year old rescue cat since last august. She has kidney disease and I will have to say goodbye soon. It is recommended I put her to sleep but saying goodbye is too soon
😢😢 My heart hurts for you Nagi. I know how hard it is to say goodbye to a beloved fur baby. Your letter to him is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing all the pictures and stories about him with us. ❤️
Dear Nagi,
I’m so sorry to hear that you beloved Dozer is gone. The pain in your heart will stay for a long time but keep thinking that he is not suffering anymore. You have done everything you could.
You were the best mum to him.
Take care and stay strong.
Kind regards
Lidia
Dear Nagi,
My heart goes out to you my darling, to loose your darling Dozer, he was so much more than a dog, he was your family, may you RIP, Dozer. You & your unconditional love you gave everyone, will never be forgotten ❤️. Janene. ❌️
so sad – so sorry
I was amongst the first to join your recipe club. Thank you Nagi for just being such a wonderful person. Both you and Doza will always have such good hearts and that is what counts. So sorry!!
The 2nd of February marked 2 years since my little furry girl Ryder left my side. My Mum called her my shadow because wherever I went she was always with me. The front seat of my car was hers just like my heart was hers. I’ll never ever forget her and I don’t think it’ll ever get easier, especially on her birthday. My heart goes out to you and don’t feel bad about shedding tears. Dozer knew that you loved him. It dogs lived as long as us it would even more heartbreaking to say goodbye.
Nagi, you are adored by this community for simply being the human that you are, I am so sorry about Dozer, but your takeaway from that love is he gave you the courage to be that same person with this community and look at you now. Just being you, works every time. A lesson for us all! ♥️
Dozer is at Peace dear Nagi
& he had the most beautiful life.
One is never prepared for final goodbye. It’s not easy but think of great times.
Sitting here with tears rolling down my eyes…I had to put my beautiful 19yr old cat down in 2023, time will heal. Loved you Dozer.
Take care Nagi x
Dozer gave the whole world something to smile about, which is an immeasurable gift. Thank you for sharing Dozer with us all. May you feel the love of us all surrounding and supporting you. Dozer will be with you always xx
Cry as long as you need to. I did for our Hayley. ❤️
So saddened to read this news…thank you for sharing your beautiful boy, Dozer, with us.
Nagi, feeling your pain right now as much as my own when I lost my Sam (aka ‘my little Piggy’) No doubt others out there felt a connection to you because of your love for Dozer – that was me too. 2 dogs later and I still yearn for Piggy – he is forever in my heart, as Dozer will be in yours. And what an awesome life you lived together- that dog was SO incredibly loved and cherished by you. Thinking of you and hoping your heart will heal quickly:)
No words are sufficient, but I know your pain, have been there! Heal with happy memories and Dozer will always be with you, heartfelt wishes to you Nagi, love Wag-Z & Chez