I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
It is a big lost, but he really left a print in all of us. It was lovely and sweet to see him in your post, news and cooking books. Thanks for sharing Nagi, take care.
Oh no! My heart is a tangled mess, and my eyes are streaming to read about the loss of Dozer. I never touched him physically but he touched our hearts and gave us intense joy. I can imagine what you are enduring. I’m so very sorry and saddened. His memories through pictures will remain joyous for me. He was such a beautiful soul. I grieve with you and for you.
If there’s a boulder sitting on my chest, what must it be for you.
I have watched you over the years share funny, soppy and loving years with him. They will always remain with you
All my love, the saddest of days losing a best friend. He was a lucky pup, you would have been the greatest dog mom ever! X
I am in tears reading this.
I lost both my girls last year, including my soul girl in October. She passed under 2 weeks from a very fast and unforgiving cancer. I still cry every day. please be kind to yourself and take the time to feel everything you are going to feel. I am so very sorry for your loss. From one dog mum to another, I feel your gut wrenching pain.
Beautiful Dozer!
Sending hugs your way Nagi xx
Dearest Nagi, my love & thoughts are with you. Dozer will always hold a special place in your heart. RIP beautiful Dozer 🌈💔😘
Oh Nagi, your Dozer was loved beyond measure and I am sure he knew that. His days, all of them, were joyful. Lucky Dozer and lucky you.
Weeping as I read about the death of your beloved Dozer. May you always cherish the love you had together. with love and affection Elizabeth and her two girls Luna and Celeste.English Springers both.
I am so so sorry to hear this very sad news. But how lucky was Dozer to be your pet.. He was so loved,
Sending love & hugs to you Nagi, xx
There are no words I didn’t know you Dozer, but I did, we all did. Rest easy beautiful boy ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m heartbroken too that Dozer has left you and all of us. He was such a blessings to you and us all. Prayers for you and Dozer who is now in heaven
My heartfelt thoughts are with you on this sorrowful time. How do they bring such much joy and then such sadness in such a short life. They are all goodest doggos.
Thank you Nagi for sharing with us all the wonderful loving life you and Dozer have had… You have both been in my thoughts and prayers, knowing his doggie days would soon be over, and how much you will miss him as your loyal companion… Love never dies, and Dozer has travelled over his Rainbow Bridge with a huge smile, knowing how much love he remembers, and that he had the best Mum in the whole wide world…❤️
Oh Nagi! As said by others – “he was everything to you, but you were his everything”! Go well sweet Dozer
We are all sobbing. We hold you and Dozer in our hearts.
I’m crying too! So sorry Nagi. My dog is part of my family and I can imagine the pain for your loss.
Dozer was a lucky boy to meet a beautiful mum like you. Also, enjoy your amazing memories with him, they are for ever. Xx
I am so deeply sorry for you loss Nagi. I hope that one day the grief you have at Dozer’s loss is swept away by the enduring love you have for him.
Sending you love and healing from Ōtautahi Christchurch New Zealand. I am sure Dozer knew how much you loved him and valued him, even if you feel you feel there was more to say.
There’s never enough time with our beloved pets! Take the time you need to grieve and heal. Your community will be here waiting for you when you are ready xx
I have tears streaming down my face at how raw your pain is, So grateful for the love you’ve given and received from that special boy. You’ve been blessed to have each other. If only there was something other than time to take away this pain. Thinking of you. x
So sorry for your loss Nagi,Dozer will always be remembered,We will miss the life of Dozer on your blog.Take care and Godblessxx
Sending love and hugs to you ❤️
We lost our Beau 10 years ago and we couldn’t have another Goldie, ( he was our 3rd ) and our hearts still have not healed. They are a truly special breed xox