I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Sorry for your loss ❤️ the heaven has welcomed a trained pooch who will show off all the culinary skills he learnt from his mom. Hugs. They always remain in our ♥️
I am so, so sorry to hear about Dozer. Sending love and hugs from Canada.
Angie
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Dearest Nagi, I am so, so sad to read about Dozer. The heartbreak would be beyond imaginable. He will always be your boy and what an amazing, wonderful life he had with you. Sending all the hugs to you as you grieve. RIP Dozer 🩷
RIP Dozer Boy. So sad for you Nagi. Your life will be different but he will always be in your heart . 💙
Nothing we say can mend a broken heart but I find remembering and talking about all the great stuff helps. I’m sure Dozer passed with a smile on his face for being so loved. Sending you strength 🙏
Dear Nagi…..hug yourself as if you are hugging him, send your flying kisses to him….the love never ends
and let the tears flow….it will get better
My heart breaks for you Nagi. I pray your pain lessens a little each day. Sending you light and strength.
My heart goes out to you Nagi. Dozer was one lucky dog to be so loved and he loved you in return.
Dogs are heart openers and heart breakers, they also save our lives. Condolences on this monumental loss. XXX
Dear Nagi,
Thank you for sharing Dozer with us. I have looked forward to seeing what he’s up to just as much as your new recipes. My condolences come with a big hug. Thank you for thinking of us all during your deepest, darkest moments of the loss of Dozer so that we can morn with you. My Tully passed away in 2021 and I no longer cry on a daily basis however some photos still bring a tear to my eye. Loosing Dozer is heartbreaking, let your body grieve the loss and remember the good times together. He would have stayed if he could but he had finished what he was here to do in your life. He gave unconditionally and he loved you dearly. May you find peace in the days and weeks ahead. Sending my love. Ruth❤️❤️❤️
My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. Bless your heart! Rest in Peace to your beautiful Dozer.
Dear Nagy, I am so very sorry for your loss. Dozer will be missed! Rest in peace ❤️
Sending you love, hugs & prayers.
So sad for you Nagi. He truly hasn’t left your side, just his physical body.
Sending love 💕
My heart goes to you . I lost my best friend of 13 years many years ago and still hurts.
Dozer will be in your heart for a life time
R.I.P
So very sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing Dozer’s life adventures with us. Your recipes are delicious but the photos and stories of Dozer were priceless. He will be sadly missed.
How lucky are we to have had something so wonderful and loving, that makes saying goodbye so hard.
Nagi
I dreaded this day for you as i went through a loss of my dog, Nozzle, and it felt like my heart was torn. It is because you loved Dozer wholeheartedly that the pain is so overwheamingly impossible to even describe.
Thank you for sharing Dozer with us. I always read his posts first before the recipe. I will dearly miss him as i felt i was also part if his journey with you. One day you will smile again although it seems impossible at the moment. Hang in there Nagi. We are all here for you x
I’m crying with you Nagi, have loved all the posts and photos of Dozer. Thank you for sharing. Saying goodbye to our beautiful pets is one of the hardest things to do in life. Sending you big hugs and much love 💗
I feel your pain Nagi. Have been through this goodbye before. Now my 18 year old is almost ready to leave us. Heartbreaking. 💔 Dozer has had the best life ever, and if I was a dog I’d choose to belong to you. Strength and love. Betsy
My deepest sympathy on the loss of your best friend and companion. You gave him a great life and to be loved unconditionally from birth to death has to be the greatest blessing.