I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
I saw this news today while sitting at work and sat the rest of the day hiding from my colleagues with tears streaming down my face thinking of you and Dozer. Saying I’m sorry feels so inadequate for the devastation that has changed your world forever. My heart breaks for you and for the days you must face, learning how to navigate a world without the other half of your heart and soul. But if you can take comfort in anything, just know that people are mourning your little boy from every corner of the globe. You gave Dozer to all of us to love and from far and wide hearts are broken, tears are falling and he is front and center in all our thoughts. It’s not every fur buddy that affects the world like that. And it only happened because during his time here you gave Dozer the world. He will always be sitting on our shelf ready to guide our next dinner.
So beautifully written
My heart goes out to you Nagi, I opened one of my favourite cookbooks yesterday to cook a meal and saw Dozer on many of the pages . A few tears shed there. He will not be forgotten. Thinking of you and sending love.There is nothing quite like a dog’s love.
Nagi I’m so sorry you have lost your amazing friend!!!
His memories will live on and give you the strength as Dozer did .
When I saw the title I knew I couldn’t read this post until my work day was done as I knew it would end me. I’m so sorry for your loss Nagi. It’s hard to imagine a dog who was more loved, lived better, or ate better. RIP Dozer. You’ll be missed worldwide. xx
Thank you for sharing beautiful Dozer with us over the years. You two obviously had (have) such a deep and loving bond and that gave me great pleasure to see.
I am so sorry for your loss of Dozer. Reading your post just brings it home how much love there was for your beautiful companion. I hope others read it and get reminded of how much our pups enrich our lives. Thank you for all that you do and for your authentic, beautiful soul.
Hi Nagi, Your recipes have inspired me for many years and always loved seeing your dozer posts and his cheeky begs for food. Dozer was so relatable to me, as our fur baby (Rosie) is always wanting to help me out in the kitchen. My heart breaks for you Nagi, but you must have some comfort in knowing you gave him the best life and your bond is unbreakable. RIP Dozer. x
Dear Nagi, I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved Dozer.I know exactly what you are going through right now. I lost my little Kobe last mounth after 16 years of life together, so I understand the overwhelming pain and the emptiness in the house. There are no words for that feeling. Stay strong. I’ll keep you and Dozer in my prayers.
If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
I would walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again
Dozer, will live forever in your heart Nagi..Try to remember the joy. Easy for me to say, I know, Have been through the same, too many times x
Vale Dozer
Dear, dear Dozer. He will always be with you.
Hugs from a Canadian friend xox
When they leave us there’s a dog shaped hole in our lives. It’s such a lonely ache without them. I lost my Golden Springer last summer. Fifteen and a half years was too short a time and I miss him every day. There was no one to jump in the leaves with in the fall. No one to make dog shaped angels when the snow fell. There will be no one to jump in the puddles in the spring and complain about needing a bath afterwards. I still wake and listen for him asleep beside my bed at night. Take your time to grieve for him, he was worth every second he was with you.
Thinking of you at this very sad time
RIP Dozer till you meet your Mum again when the time is right.
It is heartbreaking when they leave us. Nagi, be gentle with yourself over the coming months and remember that Dozer had the best life because of your love for each other.
How blessed you were Nagi, he will always be with you in that special place, tucked away safely in your heart. X
My heart and tears go out to you. Nagi. I told you a long time ago how much Dozer reminded me of my Golden service girl, Katie. I wish I could say that the grief of their loss goes completely away, but speaking from experience, I don’t think it ever will. I can hardly type this because I can feel your pain. Every time I see a golden, I miss my girl! She was my partner for 14 years. I wish you healing and remembering the joy that Dozer brought you all of his life. <3
Nagi,
I am truly sorry for your loss. In times like these, it can be comforting to imagine your beloved dog crossing the Rainbow Bridge—a place where they run freely and joyfully, surrounded by warmth and light. Though their paws may no longer walk beside you, their kisses no longer exist, and their snuggles have gone away, His spirit remains, waiting for the day you will meet again. May the memories you shared with Dozer bring you solace, and may you find peace in knowing he is at rest, basking in happiness until your paths cross once more. I cry those million tears with you. He will be greatly missed. I have printed out the photo of you and Dozer and have put them in both cookbooks.
In Loving Memory of Dozer! Woof!
PS – You and Dozer are my screen page on my computer.
Love, Ryan F.
Pennsylvania, USA
I’m not sure in all the years I’ve used your recipes that I’ve ever commented. But I wanted to say thank you to Dozer too, and thank you for sharing his life with us. It was always a highlight to see his sweet face after looking at a delicious recipe. Much love to you as you navigate life without him.
Bless you for loving and taking such good care of Dozier….You will meet again❤️😢