I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
So, so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Dozer, my heart is bleeding with you 💔
Thank YOU for sharing him so generously with us. Love & hugs coming your way 💐❤️
Dear Nagi, I am so sorry for the loss of Dozer.
So sad I feel your pain, your grief at this huge loss. Our love for our fortunate animals, is indescribable and only fellow pet lovers understand. You gave Dozer a wonderful life, he was one lucky dog and he will be with you in his essence. Love does not die, it changes for. I still shed a tear over my boy whom I had for 16 years, a rescue whom I loved so so much.
Love and light to you Nagi. RIP beautiful Dozer
I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is the absolute worst. Dozer was the best and will be deeply missed.
oh gosh, I am at my desk SOBBING. Dear Nagi, I am so so sorry. And Dear Dozer, you take all your Mums love with you. You will rest on a Cloud in the Sun looking down on your lovely Mum. We all love you Dozer. i have a 3.5 year old Dog called Snowbear, and he sends all his love to you. much Love Nagi, big hug and thank you for sharing your precious Dozer with us all these years. Much love xxx
So very sorry on losing your beautiful dog . I am a pet lover and I know about losing , my breaks for you . Take care ❤️🤗
Nagi, you will not be able to look at a photo of Dozer without a tear or two appearing from deep down. They will be happy tears. You’ll feel yourself slowing smiling. There will be a quick quiet chuckle. You will be reminded of how much you still love him. You will tell him so as you kiss his picture. It has been 13 years for me. I still cry, as I do now, for my chow/shepherd Henri. I hope they have met and are living their best life. Take care.
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Oh my goodness I am standing here at my desk with tears running down my cheeks. Dozer had the best mum and the biggest family in the world . RIP Dozer may you run and be free from pain forever xx
I’m sorry Nagi. We will miss Mr Dozer and remember the joy he brought you and that you shared with all of us. Love.
My deepest sympathy Nagi on the loss of your beloved and wonderful Dozer.
So sorry to hear this. You were with him for his final journey. He will always be with you.
My heart goes out to you Nagi. Vale Dozer. Unique and much loved. Treasure your memories. xx
Such a beautiful tribute, for such a beautiful special being ❤️ Am heartbroken for your huge loss, for the world’s loss, of the sweet, funny, cheeky, loving, lovable, loyal, courageous, inspirating, pure-hearted Dozer ❤️
Thank you for being the best mum he could have wished for, Nagi – what a blessed life he lived, he did not want for anything, and could not have been more loved, we can feel your bond through a screen, it is so strong, and will remain strong, even as the physical phase has changed. Thank you for your bravery, Nagi, in being by his side through the hardest moment of both your lives. The distress is immeasurable, and horrendous. I wish our dogs could live forever. Sending lots of love ❤️ and lick-kisses 🐶 – sam and sonny🐶
Im so sorry. What a special Love for both of you to find. Thank you for sharing so much of your precious boy with us. xoxo
May your memories of Dozer remain close to your heart forever Nagi ♥️. You are in my thoughts at this sad time xxx
I cannot stop crying. I know the feeling of loosing a wonderful 4 legged love.I do believe in heaven!!
I am so very sorry for your loss of beautiful Dozer
So sorry for your loss. Dozer was more than a pet, he was part of the family. A lovely dog for a lovely lady.
I have tears in my eyes as I type this.
Love from Canada.
Dozer had a wonderful life and enriched yours. I wish you strength in your grieving, sustained by beautiful memories.