I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Nagi,
We completely understand your loss. While Dozer could not be there for all of your life, you were there for his. And that matters.
So sorry for your loss of your beautiful fur baby Dozer❤️
I’m so sorry Nagi. Please take time to heal. We will still be here waiting for you when you come back.
I always remember seeing little updates about Dozer at the end of your recipes, but today I see this heartbreaking news. Nagi and to your family, I am so sorry. Rest in Peace Dozer x
I grieve with you. Their lives are always too short.
I’m crying reading this, my heart goes out to you Nagi. Loosing a dog is the hardest thing ever, Thank you Nagi for sharing your precious Dozer w us. Thank you for being you, and for doing what you do. Sending Big love to you at this sad & difficult time❤️🩹
I am looking for a way to eat more healthy foods. I’ve been thinking about eating a meatless meal every week and maybe expanding to more. I came across your blog and liked what you have shared.
I would enjoy trying your recipes in my new eating plan.
I am very sorry about the loss of your dog. May the Lord lessen your pain in the days to come.
Nagi. I’ve been such a loyal fan of your site and recipes and love all those posts of dozer over the years. As a mom of 5 dogs and a cat, my heart breaks to hear this and we …me and my family that have welcomed your food into our lives, send you many many hugs from across the world. X
I am so very sorry Nagi. Losing such a great friend is so hard! Dozer was obviously a special guy. Find comfort in knowing that he was well loved.
I have come across your page while looking for a vanilla cake recipe. I am at in tears with news of the loss of your beautiful boy. You made him happy and he left knowing both but love. Thank you for being such a wonderful person xxx
Hi, Nagi,
I just want to say that I’ve been there, and you are not alone. You are loved by all of us, your readers, and you were loved by the greatest Golden ever, Dozer. You were his whole world, and his big heart beat for you. It wasn’t his choice to leave you, and he wouldn’t want you to suffer. He loved you so well, and you loved him equally well. I hope you can find peace with his passing, and know he’s waiting for you on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge.
Bless you,
Mandy
Crying reading your words. Goodbyes are the hardest. Sending much love to you.
Dear Nagi,
My sincere condolences, madam.
I’ve loved reading about Dozer’s antics over the years (alongside your recipes) – they, like he, will be missed – may he rest in peace.
I wish you much strength during this time XXX.
There are no words to express the loss of our beloved pets.
So very sorry for the loss of Dozer. Your undying love for that pup was felt right through the Internet. Thanks for sharing him with us.
Sorry to learn of the passing of your dear sweet Dozer. Our canine friends ask for so little but give so much back. They are family, each with their own personality, true friends.
I believe we will reunite with them somehow , someday , somewhere. Rely on family and friends to guide you thru this difficult time .
Oh my goodness…what a beautiful tribute for a beautiful soul 🥰 My heart breaks for you…you gave him an incredible life full of endless love ❤️ From me and my two goldies…sending huge hugs and love x
I’m so sorry, Nagi. What fun it has been to have Dozer be a part of your recipes and my week for the past few years as I’ve plucked a recipe (or three or four) from your site for my family’s meals. What a gift to have pets in our lives to help us feel worthy of love just the way we are. Thinking of you during this toughest of times. Big hug from Kenya.
The love we feel for our fur children is powerful beyond belief for the uninitiated. I am crying with you and for you both. Dozer had the best possible life. You gave him everything, Nagi, including of yourself, and are now paying the price. Been there, done that. And would we have it any other way? Of course not, but gosh, it hurts when they go. Much love to you.
The love well feel for our fur children is powerful beyond belief for the uninitiated. I am crying with you and for you both. Dozer had the best possible life. You gave him everything, Nagi, including of yourself, and are now paying the price. Been there, done that. And would we have it any other way? Of course not, but gosh, it hurts when they go. Much love to you.
The live well feel for our fur children is powerful beyond belief for the uninitiated. In am crying with you and for you both. Dozer had the best possible life. You have him enduring, Magic, including of yourself, and are now paying the price. Been there, done that. And would we have it any other way? Of course not, but gosh, it hurts when they go. Much love to you.
Dear Nagi, my heart hurts for you. He loved you totally and you gave him an awesome life. A) of us who have loved and lost a pet know completely what you are going through but it was worth it to spend time with them.
Dearest Nagi, I am so sad for the loss of beautiful Dozer, I will miss him so much too. Dozer has left a big paw print on my heart. Love and hugs to you Nagi xx