I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Dear Nagi, I really feel your heartache. Please continue to visit all those amazing memories, and just remember that he only a thought away. He’ll be waiting for you on the other side of the rainbow 🌈 bridge. Sending you much love and comforting hugs. 🤗
Hi Nagi, you have made a great team and Dozer will forever be remembered. Rest in peace Dover. Nagi, please take heart…
My heart bleeds for you dear Nagi. To be quite honest, it was the thought of reading about Dozer that kept me clicking on your emails. I love your recipes of course, but I think I love seeing posts about him more. But seriously, this really saddens all of us your followers. Please take care of yourself. Grieve if you must but always be reminded of all the happiest times with Dozer and just the thought that he was very happy here on earth because he was extremely loved by you and everyone in the world. Please remember that everyone loves you too Nagi 🥲❤️
Rest in Peace Dozer ♥️
Nagi, no words can express what your going through, I wish I could be there to help. I lost my Sweetp about 2 years ago and I still miss her dearly. My prayers are with you.
I feel your pain too but if he could talk, he would say,
“Mum, it was Heaven here with you, I had the best dog life ever.
Cry f you must but remember me with love and smile for the joy I had as your boy. love Dozer
Nagi I am so sorry for your loss. I cry for you every time I think about you and that beautiful boy Dozer. I have not once looked at a recipe without first checking out Dozer’s link at the end. You two had a very beautiful bond. Px
My heart breaks for you and Dozer. I know how devastated you feel now. Please take good care of you now.
Dear Nagi, I’m so heartbroken for you, losing our fur babies is devastating. I loved following your stories with Dozer, he will forever be in your heart. Please take care and be gentle with yourself xx
Dear Nagi, my heart goes out to you and Dozer. It’s an enormous loss, but remember he will always be in your heart and looking down on you as your guardian angel
Dear Nagi, my heart also knows the ache and grief of losing your best friend. Dozer was a beautiful boy. Big hugs to you sweetheart. 💔
Dear Nagi, you have both been blessed to have had each other. My thoughts are with you. xx
My heart goes out to you nagi.
At this moment my precious cat Pepper is dying so I can relate.
15 years he was my friend, my baby and so lovable to everyone around me.
After seeing the vet with bad news I took Pepper home a place that was home to him for 15 years to be comfortable then to be hospitalize. It was nice to spend time with him for a few days, Pepper then got to a point he did not recognize me I decided to have him put to sleep.
I am so sorry for your loss, Nagi. My heart breaks for you. Dozer will be sadly missed but remembered with such love. Thank you for sharing him with all of us. You gave him wonderful, full life. Take care, thinking of you ❤️😪
I am so heart broken for you.
Dozer was so blessed to have you as his Mum.
I know,you have so many wonderful memories to enjoy but I know how broken & sad you must be,feeling.
Know tgatxI am thinking if you.
Much love Vanessa ❤️ Auckland NZ
I do feel for your loss Nagi I have enjoyed your life together
xox sue
All my love to you Nagi. I too know the pain of saying goodbye. We are so lucky to have them for the time we get. Every minute matters. They love us so unconditionally. We never forget them. In your arms for a short while, in your heart for a lifetime.
My heart aches for you. You love him so fiercely and I’m grateful that you so generously shared him with us.
I believe our pets come (and go back) to the angelic realm.
He was your soul dog and will always be with you. ❤️
I am so heart broken for you.
Dozer was so blessed to have you as his Mum.
I know,you have so many wonderful memories to enjoy but I know how broken & sad you must be,feeling.
Know tgatxI am thinking if you.
Much love Vanessa ❤️ Auckland NZ
Oh Nagi, I know your heart will be broken. We are all heartbroken for you. Dozer had the best life. And no greater testement of your love for him than your being with him right to the end, trying everything. No words can help. If they did a million words will be coming your way. So very very sorry.