I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Nagi – you and Dozer have provided a unique and truly WONDERFUL experience of love and loyalty and down-to-earthness. I’m deeply sorry for what you must be feeling now and I recognise what you feel now is a reflection of the relationship you have with Dozer. Thanks for sharing him with us all.
My heart is breaking for you Nagi and I hope one day you will be able to look at photos of your darling Dozer and not sob. Thank you for sharing your world with him and allowing us to see the beautiful friendship and love you shared for each other. It will always be “ Nagi & Dozer”. 💕
Tears are rolling down as I write this. I felt so close to Dozer myself! He has spread so much joy and given so much love. Rest in peace brave and strong Dozer. You will always live in our hearts.
Deepest condolences Nagi, Dozer will be in your love and heart always.
So sorry for your loss. You were so lucky to have known such love.
Beautiful, sweet Dozer you have friends all around the world who loved sharing your life with the mom who loved you so deeply for 14 years. Nagi we all know it hurts so much now but the memories and the love you both shared will always be in your heart. As a dog mom who lost my 16 year old beautiful blind girl “Desi” 5 years ago I still drop a few tears and I laugh as I remember “our” memories together. I know it hurts, take time for yourself to mourn and thank you for sharing Dozer with us.
I am so sorry for your loss. It is a heartbreaking time for you but please remember that Dozer loved you so much and he will always be in your heart ♥️
Our deepest condolences. Dozer lived a full life filled with plenty love, special moments and good food. He is now in a special place without pain ❤️
Dear Nagi. As someone once said: Grief is the price we pay for love. But it is worth the grief for the amazing love you and Dozer had for each other. He had a beautiful, and happy life thanks to you. 😘
Dearest Nagi,
I’m so sorry for your loss. I wish I could take all your heartache away. Dozer was such a special boy. He’ll never be forgotten. He lives on in your heart, my heart, and in the hearts of everyone here. May God bless you and give you strength, through this very difficult time. All my love, Susan.
So, so sorry to hear that. Thank you for posting. Remember all the good times – makes it easier. Thinking of you.
RIP Dozer boy
RIP Dozer.
My heart breaks for you Nagi. Losing a pet is no different than losing a family member. In time you will remember him with smiles not tears.
I am in tears here in the UK hugging my dog a little tighter this morning. My heart is breaking for you, this is the moment we all dread. Take time to grieve and remember all the good times, he is still there in your heart and always will be. xxxx
Having a cry with you this morning Nagi, he was so loved, you did all you could. Be kind on yourself take all the time you need to heal. His heart is still with yours xxxx
Nagi, my heart is broken as I read your final words about your lovely Dozer. We will not forget the many postings of your wonderful recipes with Dozer always, always at your side. He knew how much you loved him as much as we know. Rest Dozer in Peace. What a lovely pup you were❤️🥰🐾🙏😢💔. Love from Kelowna, BC 🇨🇦
So sorry for your loss Nagi, I hope that one day your heart will heal.. xxxx
Nagi, my thoughts are with you, I can’t think of anything to say to make you feel better and I’m sure at this early stage of grieving you don’t even want to feel better. But it will come. Until then be kind to yourself x
My dear Nagi. Our lives are never the same when we lose a part of our soul. I hope that you will be ok. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Dozer.
Nagi and Dozer you have had so many marvellous pawsome moments and shared happy tails. These times will be furever with you. Only Time will soften the pain. keep your most treasured memory close. Our dear pets are our furever friends and dozer was a lucky dog to have lived his life and have his happy tail with you always to be remembered.
I’m so happy you got to share all those years with him Nagi. You both lucked in.