I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Dear Nagi, I am so very sorry that Dozer is gone and your heart aches. So many readers loved Dozer remotely. I am happy to admit that if the recipe did not grab me I would still scroll down to see what Dozer was up to. So many people adore you and your recipes and great work. Sending you so much love at this difficult time Nagi. Rest in peace Dozer xxx
So sorry for ypur loss. I really feel for you having losy my 16 year old boy lasy year. If it is any help I now have all the wonderful memories as the first tjought when I look at my screen saver not the sadness of losing him. It is slow but it does happen
I am very sorry that Dozer has passed, you gave him the best life and he rewarded you, you will miss him, accept the help of friends while you grieve.
So very sorry for your loss. Dozer was a much loved dog, a superstar. Thank you for sharing your adventures with us.Please be kind to yourself. Dozer knew how much you loved him. He will always be there, watching over you & sending his love. xx
Nagi, I am also hurting for you. I am so grateful that you had the support of the SASH team to ease your burden.
I feel they are also devastated at your loss as Dozer had become one of their family also. Gail
I am very sorry for your loss of Dozer. What a grand dog he was and what a loving bond you had with him. You looked after him beautifully, Nagi.
Dogs are very special to us. No words are exchanged, but all is communicated anyway.
Take good care, Nagi. You honoured your mate, Dozer, to his last breath. That’s all we can do to acknowledge their unconditional love. Feeling for you. Jennifer xxoo
So very sorry for your loss. Dozer was a much loved dog, a superstar. Thank you for sharing your adventures with us.Please be kind to yourself. Dozer knew how much you loved him. He will always be there, watching over you & sending his love. xx
So very sorry for your loss Nagi. Having 2 golden myself, I know how much love they give. Dozer will be greatly remember by all of us that follow your site. xxxx
I’m so sorry for your loss Nagi. May your many happy memories of your beloved Dozer bring you comfort. 💜
My heart breaks for you Nagi.
Gorgeous pics, you have some wonderful memorable pics there.
Night night Dozer! xxxx
Oh Nagi, I’m so sorry. Sending you all the love in the world. 😢
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Dear Nagi, I feel your loss & every time I open my Facebook I end up in tears. Over 70+ Years we have lost so many pets (all buried on our property). It’s so hard dealing with the end of life but then can come a new beginning & when you’re ready there will be a new love come into your life. Because you’re the perfect person to treasure our most loyal companions!!!
Now in my 8O’s I would dearly love to have another pet/elderly dog to love & take care of but health issues won’t allow it 😢
I am so sorry about your lost . Dozer will always be with you, differently. He was so lucky to have you looking after him. My thoughts are with you.
I couldn’t stop the tears as I read your ode to Dozer….
He was an amazing companion. Big hugs to you with loads of doggie love
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So so sorry. What a wonderful boy Dozer was a wonderful boy and what a hole he will leave.
Your love for him and his for you will always remain.
Sending a big hug
I hope that your memories of Dozer will bring you peace. Thank you so much for sharing him with your readers. His picture always makes me smile. <3
My heart is breaking for you Nagi.
😢💔 Dozer will be with you for the rest of your life, in your memory! That sort of love never stops!
Sorry to hear that your Dozer has gone over the rainbow bridge. My son’s nickname is Dozer and is a beautiful boy like your Dozer. RIP. He will always be your hero. Lxoxo