I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
So sorry for your loss :-(. It is the saddest thing in the world to lose a special pet who will always be part of the family. Stay strong Nagi. Thinking of you and will include Dozer in my daily prayer/chanting.
So sorry for your loss, I understand the pain and heartache you are going through having gone through it myself.
It will pass in time and you will love a furry little bundle of joy again ❤️
My heart breaks for you Nagi. You were both so very lucky to have each other in your lives. Dozer, you were such a beautiful boy with so so much personality. Nagi, thank you for sharing Dozer with us, he put a smile on my face every day xx🐾❤️
I can feel the grief and love in this post, Nagi. I hope it brings you some comfort knowing he passed in his best friend’s arms, with minimal pain, the kind of peaceful ending we all wish for those we love, human and animal alike. Your pain right now is the price of admission for such a deep love; how wonderful that the two of you got to experience it.
Sending love and strength to you.
– Liv ❤️🌹
Dear Nagi. My heart is breaking for you over losing your beautiful fur baby Dozer. I cried when I found out. He was a gorgeous, entertaing & decerning food taster. Your heart will heal, but always ache. Sending you hugs & love. Hugs & love for Dozer
I’m sending you a big hug Nagi. I feel your grief but though you can’t believe it right now, believe me, the memories and photos will never fade, but the pain will heal, just give yourself some time x
Dear Nagi, I am a follower of yours (and Dozer’s) for a long time; I have had dogs in my life always, and actually I have one, called Bianca, for this I know what you are feeling,
Just wanted to tell you that Dozer will always be there, with you, because you carry him in your heart.
Javier from Madrid.
Thank you Nagi for sharing the life of Dozer with us, he has given us all so much joy. I have tears and will hug my pup a little tighter tonight as I feel your pain. Please allow yourself time and grace as you grieve, I am so sorry for your loss. RIP Dozer, you were a very, very good boy.
I’m so sorry to hear of Dozer’s passing. He loved you as much as you loved him. Peace an d love to you.💔
Dear Nagi,
I’m sending you lots of hugs for your loss of Dozer. Just know he has gone over the rainbow and is looking after you. XXX
When words will just never do, I sit crying reading you beautiful words to your beloved sweet boy and feel your pain and heartbreak. Thinking of you and sending much love ❤️ 🩵
Rest In Peace Beautiful Dozer.xxx
Thank you Nagi, and thank you dear Dozer for reminding us all what matters the most in this world – to love, and be loved. I truly believe that this beautiful soul will always be with you, Nagi. Your constant companion on earth and now, your guardian in the sky.
Sending hugs 🥺💗🐶
So sorry for your loss Nagi. Dozer was special so special that will see him every day when I get out my recipetin eats book to pick something for dinner. Know there will always be a smile on my face when I see him. RIP Dozer
He had the best life with you. Stay strong xx
So sorry for your loss, big hug!
Sending lots of love ❤️
Our deepest sympathies to you and all your friends and family who loved Dozer .
You were the best Mum . May the memories warm you .
Lee and Lindsay
Dozer will live forever in your heart. He’ll always be with you.