I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Sweetest, beautiful, adorable Dozer, you will be so sorely missed. I am so sorry Nagi for your loss. Thank you for bringing such a wonderful ray of sunshine into our lives. Sending you a hug
Nagi, you gave Dozer his best life. ♥️♥️♥️
RIP beautiful boy. 😢
Dear Nagi,
There are no words that can help with this grief journey you are on; as has been said already, the deeper the love the greater the pain of the loss. Dozer was so deeply loved and what an amazing life he had with you. I just wanted to thank you for sharing your beautiful Dozer with your readers – I have loved reading about what he was getting up to and seeing his photos in your cookbooks.
Take good care of you Nagi – you and your Dozer have touched so many lives.
With deep sympathy for your loss,
Elizabeth
Rest in peace Dozer! Dear Nagi, your love and tenderness will accompany Dozer forever! Be well… time will diminish pain and will offer many beautiful memories.
Nagi—what a beautiful and loving tribute to Dozier. I loved reading all your posts about him and your adventures together. I am so sorry for your loss but know he is resting in the heavenly arms of the angels and free from all pain and discomfort. God bless and comfort you in your sadness❣️🙏
My heart goes out to you I also had 3 labbies that I had to say goodbye to….. saddest days of my life
So sorry to hear of Dozer’s passing. Always loved to find out what the two of you were up to as well as the amazing recipes. Take comfort in knowing he had an amazing life with you as his Mum and he will always be loved by everyone whose life he touched in person or via posts. I understand your pain at Dozers loss and send you warm hugs and sincere condolances in your time of grief. He will be with you in spirit forever just as my beloved dog is still with me.
Take care of yourself, Viki
Thank you for loving Dozer so fiercely. All dog Moms are grieving with you. I lost my Pomeranian when he was 14years old. The pain of that loss has turned into beautiful memories over the years. I even tell stories about him to my new sausage dog.
I’m so incredibly sorry to hear about Dozer. I know how hard it is to lose a fur baby, and feel your pain in all of your words above. He has given you so much love and so many memories all of which will stay forever in your heart. Xxx
I am so sad for you Nagi,,,it will take ages for you to look at those beautiful photos but one day you will. All your readers will remember him forever and miss him along with you
Dozer ,If Love could have Saved you.
You would have lived Forever ♥️🐕
He will always be with you forever in your heart
Take care Nagi ♥️
So sorry Nagi. From experience the tears will come at random times for years. When they leave us they take a piece of our heart with them.
Isn’t it one of the greatest things we know to love a precious fur baby so, so dearly. I firmly believe that the longer you have a fur baby in your life the longer that beautiful bond i grows and grows.
I am so gutted for you that you have been parted from your gorgeous companion after all this time.
I am sure Dozer would have tried his utter best to stay with you as long as he could.
May your precious fur baby now RIP.
Remember all the love and special times you both shared together throughout the years and take comfort in that. 🙂
Thinking you both at this sad time.
Hi Nagi,
Sending you lots of love and strength at this difficult time, losing your beloved Dozer. The hardest part of having a fur baby – the loss 🥲🥰 xxx
He’s in doggie heaven now. Endless walks, car rides and glorious food. He’ll be catching up your other 4 legged family and one day he will be there to greet you and give you a warm welcome.
😢
Oh Nagi, my heart breaks for you. The unconditional love of a dog is truly special and yours even more so… your mutual affection was plain for everyone to see. Sending you love and hugs.
Hearfelt condolences on losing Dozer .Thanks for sharing Dozer s pictures and stories with us .
Dear Nagi, I feel your pain and understand the sadness you are experiencing. I too had to say goodbye to my darling Chow Chow Of 14 years. She was the best friend and loyal companion. Dozer is in good company now. Treasure his memory forever.
Wishing you peace my friend. x