I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Thank you for sharing Dozer with us! He will truly be missed by so many of us. Know that Dozer is running free and eating all the things. Please take the time to mourn and know we love you and we will always have the wonderful memories of your sweet fur-baby.
Dear Nagi
My heart is breaking for you. I am writing this in a flood of tears. You will have such beautiful memories of Dozer. What a precious dog. A beautiful dog and her beautiful momma. XOXO
So sorry for your loss Nagi. We are all so grateful to you for sharing Dozer with us. What a wonderful life you had together!
I know that just thinking of him now beings you such pain and sadness but over time, thinking of him will make you smile again and those memories will be such happy ones.
Take care and we are all thinking about you and sending love your way. Xxx
I am so sorry for your loss. Dozer is now resting pain free and watching you from above
I am so sorry for your loss, its never easy to lose a valued family member, please accept my prayers and condolences.
Love and hugs to you Nagi at this sad time.
Not much comes close to the unconditional love and companionship a dog can give.
Thinking of you and RIP Dozer, you had the best life a dog could wish for.
Mark & Janelle
Tears are rolling down my face as I read your sad post, but then I look at the photos and what a great life you gave to Dozer, how lucky you both were to find each other, and what a lucky dog to be so loved.
Hi Nagi,
No words can convey the sorrow we are all feeling at Dozer’s passing.
It is difficult when we lose our life long pet partners.
It will get easier but great memories will help in the coming days/months.
I am so so sorry for your loss. I feel your pain, your sadness, your heartbreak, your sense of loss. And I also feel your love, your precious memories, and your gratitude for having had Dozer in your life. He was truly, deeply loved, and he knew it and felt it, and he was truly happy to have had you in his life too. Thinking of you while you take all the time you need to come to terms with your loss 🤗
I’ve never known a dog to be loved as much as your Dozer was loved by you. A very special bond that you had. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Oh Nagi, you and Dozer had such a wonderful life together. You each gave the best of yourselves. One day you will be able to remember those times without the tears – mostly. I hope it helps a little that so many people feel your pain and will miss Dozer💕🌺
I had to suffer the same loss last June 28. The tears will continue to fall but the lovely memories will always remain. Thoughts are with you.
Nagi 🥲I have just woke up to reading this, sat here tears rolling down my face, your pain no one will ever understand, you loved Dozer unconditionally as he did you 🥲 the precious memories you will hold in your broken heart forever, always remember he had the best life ever with you, you could not have done anymore, you threw your love around him like confetti ❤️look after yourself and in time you will be able to smile again, take care and sending you so much love ❤️
Dear Nagi, Dozer was so blessed to have such a beautiful and caring owner like you. What a wonderful life he’s had! You are equally blessed. His beautiful memory will remain in your heart forever. Dogs are the best! Bless you Dozer XXX
Hi Nagi I live in Spain and follow your delicious recipes here , I’m sorry about your temporary loss ( I believe in eternal life when you will be reunited with Dozer ) send you huge hug and much love xxx
Kàssima Karina Finardi
I am sobbing after reading this. Much love from a fellow dog mum in the UK. Like you say ‘it only hurts so much because of the amount of love you have for them’ RIP Dozer x
So sorry 💔
It has taken me 3 goes to read this, as It is just so sad my heart is breaking for you I’m so sorry for your loss. They love you so unconditionally and you were just the best mum to Dozer. RIP Dozer you will never be forgotten xx
Oh Nagi San. I feel your pain and I shed a few tears with you when I read your letter to Dozer. Dozer, thank you for the wonderful memories. Nagi San, we share your pain. Hugs and much love.
Very sad news Nagi, Dozer was the best and I really enjoyed sharing his life through your posts.
Thinking of you, love and deepest sympathy during this difficult time.