I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
So much love for you Nagi and dear Dozer. The loss of him is felt so enormously. I still have moments where the grief of losing our boy in 2019 hits me out of nowhere. But the photos and memories heal my heart as I hope they do for you.
Love is always very precious. Must appreciate it when it happens. U loved my man and just miss him so much.
I’m so sorry about Dozer. What a dude. He will always have a place in your heart and ours.
Oh Dozer, you were so so loved. Nagi I know your heart is breaking right now. Sending all my love from Pittsburgh.
Sending lots of love and condolences from ireland xxx Dozer was a fabulous fella and clearly loved his mum to bits. i dread this in the coming years with my elderly terrier, it makes a good reminder to celebrate every day of doggo love ❤️
Sending you so much love, he’s such a special boy and had amazing life thanks to you xx
Ohhh I am FLATTENED by Dozer’s passing and I am sobbing as I read this. Every dog owner in the cosmos knows the keening of your heart as your furbaby passes into the great meadow beyond. Sending you big hugs Nagi from my heart to yours
Oh Nagi, I’m so sorry for your loss. I have loved seeing you and Dozer’s adventures. You will smile again, and Dozer was such a lucky boy to have such a beautiful and caring Mum. Sending big hugs xx
I’m so sorry you lost Dozer.
Our pets truly become family.
His biggest joy was likely loving you. I know you showed him love every day that he no doubt felt till the end.
Find comfort in your memories.
Thank you so much for sharing..
Hi Nagi,
I’m so sorry to hear about Dozer. I’ve loved ur recipes and Dozer updates over the last few years. He was a Good Boy! And don’t forget, ‘All Dogs Go To Heaven’ ❤️😔
Dear Nagy,
I am sad to learned Dozer crossed the Rainbow Bridge. He received a lots of love and enjoy a good life.
Forever he leaves a pawprint in your heart.
Virginia
Dear Nagi, I am heartbroken to hear that Dozer has passed. He was the reason I picked up your first book. A friend told me about it and how you feature him in your recipies and how he is a big part of this project. I loved your book and him right away. He was such a joy to see in all your posts. May his memory live on forever.
“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.” — Winnie-the-Pooh
That was such a beautiful and touching tribute to your Dozer. It really moved me how animals can touch our lives so deeply and provide so much joy. Thank you for caring so much for him, and may you find another “Dozer” in your future. Best wishes!
So sorry for your loss. I am writing this with a heavy heart, before looking at your wonderful recipes I always had to see what Dozer had been up to. I will remember him when making any of your recipes. Lots of Love and Light David Sumner
So sorry for your loss. I am writing this with a heavy heart, before looking at your wonderful recipes I always had to see what Dozer had been up to. I will remember him when making any of your recipes..
Dear Nagi, I am so sorry for your loss!
All my love 🧡
My deepest heartfelt condolences Nagi. Dozer was a true treasure.
Nagi, I am so terribly sorry. I can definitely feel your loss. Be strong. Susan
So sorry for your loss Nagi.
We are heartbroken for you.
Chris and Annmarie
I am crying with you.