I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
All the unconditional love they give us is breathtaking. We lost our little lady last year on the same day as Dozer. The photos and memories will always bring tears but much laughter associated also. Big hugs
Mind to mind communication…as sad to leave you as you are to not be able to hold him. You have precious memories. It is so enormously difficult to say goodbye….many of us all.over the world are feeling for you. Thank you for sharing him with us.
I’m so very sorry for your loss ❤️
I’m so sorry, it’s always so bloody hard, and we always hope, somehow, it isn’t going to happen, but inevitably it does. It’s the price we pay for the years of love, and it never gets any easier.
Cherish your memories.
Sending love from a wet, dreary UK
Heartache for you Nagi, Dozer was your best mate and you were his.
No love like it ❤️
So, so sorry for your loss Nagi, crying as I’m reading this, brings back so many memories of my own.
He’ll be waiting for you at the rainbow bridge, tail wagging
I am so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks reading this. Losing a fur baby is tragic. Dozer has his angel wings and you will meet again. Big hugs.
Hi Nagi, I am so sorry to hear of the sad loss of your dear Dozer. I am sure he will be watching down on you and protecting you all the way:) He was so lucky to have such a lovely person to watch over him all his life.
So very sorry to read the news we have all been dreading. It is so hard to say goodbye to a loyal, treasured friend. Take comfort in the fact that you shared so many wonderful years together. You have so many memories to help you through this, the hardest of times. As you say dogs love you unconditionally and for your part you could not have loved Dozer more. You will be very much in my thoughts and prayers at this sad and difficult time. With much love. Alison xx
RIP Dozer
Dearest Nagi, My heart is so very heavy today on seeing your email. Dozer and all your beautiful stories of him in your life has been a part of all our lives for so long now. There is nothing as special as the non judgmental loyalty and love of our doggy friends. The memories though raw for now, will comfort you as time goes by. You have all my love and hugs, Rosemary in England xxxx
Nagi – you do not walk alone on this journey of heartbreak. Dozer will live forever in your heart and in the hearts of all your followers. Till you meet again on the Rainbow Bridge.
Dear Nagy
I am so sorry for your loss. My husband has just died. & I feel much the same as you. When my much loved cat died aged 20 I felt just the same loss. Love is love whoever it’s for. But loss mustn’t stop us loving.
Linda
Our heart goes out to you with all love. Dozer was a daily joy and inspired us to have our own great big golden baby. He has broken fingers, hearts, treasured possessions, but at 2 years old is a glue in our family – keeping us entertained and doing things together. Everyone needs a Bailey/ Dozer dog cuddle and we are sending one to you in memory of Dozer.
Your wonderful recipes have also been life changing in many ways – my 13 year old son cooks daily and wants to be a chef.
Keep being you – Dozer will always be there.
When we lost another pet after 16 years, my daughter painted a tiny pic of him in a locket. It is a beautiful way to carry memories
I am crying just as much as you are. I am so sorry your baby died it tore me up he 3as so so sweet and loving. I miss you sweet angel RIP Dozer .u will be together again one day until then he waits for you at the Rainbow bridge in heaven. U take care and never forget his love for you and your love for him so sorry
Dozer will always be around you and forever in your heart.
Grief is love with no place to go. Dozer was lucky to have you as a mum. Hugs and kisses
Thinking of you through these hardest of days. My heart aches with yours and Dozers.
So sorry to hear about your precious dozer ❤️
I’m sat here with tears running don my face reading this, and knowing what you are feeling having gone through the same many times. Your memories will keep you forever strong, and the love will never die. Sending hugs. Xx