I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Dear Nagi,
So sorry to hear about your loss of your most loved Dozer. As a “dad” of two hairy kids I sympathise with and know no words may help here but you know I feel sad for you and Dozer .
My best
Piotr
My heart is breaking for you, Nagi. Sending love and light. Rest easy, Dozer 💜
Oh Nagi,I am so so sorry about Dozer.You we’re so lucky to have eachother.What a beautiful tribute you wrote for him!I felt every word and cried along with you.Sending love❤️
Nagi, I’m so sorry for your loss. As the late Queen once said, grief is the price we pay for love. And how much love & joy do our wonderful pets bring into our lives? God bless Dozer and God bless all our pets. <3 x
My heart is absolutely breaking for you Nagi, I have followed you and Dozer for so long. I have cried through his health problems and wished for the best. I sobbed when I read your last letter to your beautiful boy. There is nothing harder than having to say goodbye. You loved him unconditionally and he did the same for you. Please know that we all wrap you in our thoughts and hearts while you grieve your wonderful beautiful Dozer. 💔💔
Oh Nagi. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Dozer was such a big part of your life as you were for him but I know you will be reunited one day. Dogs never really leave us, he will still be walking next to your side as you try and come to terms with your life moving forward.
As Robert Louis Stevenson said, and I quote: “ You think dogs will not be in heaven? I tell you, they will be there long before any of us “
Sending much love and hugs from another dog lover.
I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of your precious boy. You gave him a wonderful life and he paid you back with love, trust and just being there, RIP Dozer.
Hi Nagi,
I know just how you are feeling following the loss of your beloved Dozer. It is a heart breaking and tremendously sad having to say goodbye to someone who has been such a wonderful companion in one’s life and so I share your sadness. We have just said farewell to our most beautiful little Tibetan Terrier 6 weeks ago after she developed liver disease a few months earlier. Baillie was only 9 years and 11 months old and she was such a lovely loyal, happy and friendly member of our family and everyone just loved her. She has left a huge void in our home and we miss her so much every minute of every day and I know you are experiencing this same grief following Dozers passing. We are thinking of you both with love and tears .
Dear Nagi,
What a team you and Dozer are ❤️❤️
Your love for each other was exemplary I understand the bond of our precious Furrbabies.
Dozer was a true Champion an extra special celebratory food pooch.
Your commitment, love and dedication are beyond extraordinary.
It brings a deep sense of sadness as Dozer was your world 🌍.
Nagi I hope you can learn to live with Dozer in memory, he will never be forgotten. I hope he hanging out with all his friends in Restaurant heaven, continuing his food journey on a different level and bringing joy to those above.
I really feel the pain and loss of the physical furrbaby but he will be live on in your heart forever ❤️❤️❤️❤️
We are so sorry for your great loss
What a beautiful team you were
God Bless
Thinking of you
May Dozers soul continue to rest in Peace, we will all miss him. I always look forward to seeing his picture at the end of every recipe.
Take heart Nagi. It is well!
Beautiful words Nagi. I’m so sorry for your loss x
My Dozers soul continue to rest in Peace, we will all miss him. I always look forward to seeing his picture at the end of every recipe.
Take heart Nagi. It is well!
Nagi, this is so so sad, thinking of you with much love, Dozer was a beautiful boy xxxooo
Nagi someone is definitely cutting onion near me while I read your letter to Dozer. What a beautiful letter, you were really lucky to have him in your life, now your heart needs to heal, not because he was your dog, but because he was your family! May he rest in peace.
Hi Nagi
It is hard to lose a beloved pet but we know they won’t outlive us. Remember the good times and the wonderful life that Dozer had, 14 years is quite a milestone, due no doubt to your love and care. Hugs
Dear Nagi, I am so very, very sorry.
{gentle hugs}
A wiser person than me said that grief is the price we pay for love.
😪🥰
Heartbroken. Sobbing. There just are no words. He had the best life ever with the best mom ever. Dozer will live on in all our hearts forever. 😢😢🥰🥰💕💕
The heartbreak feels so unbearable but is a measure of how truly you loved Dozer. Thinking of you.