I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Dear Nagi, I cried reading your post, both for Dozer and you and because it brought back the memory of my own 15yo labrador’s passing about 20 years ago. I still have his ashes. I hope that soon you will be able to remember the good times.
Love to you and Dozer
Nagi, Thank you for sharing Dozer with us. He brought much joy and many smiles to so many people and we will all miss him dearly. May you treasure memories of your most precious moments together and find comfort in knowing we are with you in spirit.
I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Ot is like loosing a loved one. They are art of your family.
Sending prayers that God will comfort you during this difficult time.
What a wonderful time you two had together.
I am so sorry that Dozer is no longer with you.
Take your time and be gentle on yourself Nagi. 🥺🥺🐕❤️
My heart goes out to you Nagi. I feel your pain. I have been through the same thing. You will always have him in your heart.. Sending you lots of hugs. xxx
Dear Nagi
Dozer didn’t need to go home – you were his home. You were always his home and what a love you both shared. Try to be kind to yourself until you meet again xx
Oh Nagi , I am so very , very sorry you’ve lost you Little Braveheart 🐾 love and hugs hunni🫂 xx
I’m so sorry, Nagi. He was wonderful and I will miss your stories about your adventures together. You were an excellent mum!
Hugs!
Dearest Nagi.
My heart goes out to you, I can honestly say that will be the hardest thing you ever have to do in life.
Dozer will be having a ball now, running around the big ball park in the sky. I know my English Bull Terrier Spudley will be up there looking out for him.
Grieving for Dozer will be a lengthy process… you will never forget him, He had THE most amazing life.. so many dogs don’t get that. He was so lucking having you as his mum.
Sending woofs and hugs from the UK.xx
Dearest Nagi,
I wish I could find the perfect words to send my condolences and to comfort you. Unfortunately I can’t, except to say I’m sending you all my love and healing energy to you. Dozer is such a beautiful boy and you gave him the best possible life. May the many wonderful memories Dozer has created, help to ease your pain. Thinking of you and take care❤️
Nagi,
What a beautiful life Dozer and you shared together. I am sorry you are suffering so much now, however, please hold on to how much joy you brought into Dozer’s life and how lucky he was to share his life with you.
Thank you for all the joy you bring to us.
Please look after yourself. Liz x
Dear Nagi – thank you for sharing your beautiful boy with us all. I can’t think
of any other fur baby who was as universally loved – especially by his amazing Mum. What a life he had! He will be missed by many. 💕. Take care Nagi – may your pain ease and be replaced with the memories and joy he brought. Many are holding you in their hearts.
I am so sorry 💔😢💜 🐶
I am so very sorry to hear of your loss of your ( “our” )beloved Dozer. You had each other for 14 glorious years. Thank you for loving him so much. Hand on tightly to your wonderful memories and keep loving him through them. You will survive this terrible, painful loss but it will be hard. So many of your readers are right beside you, walking with you.
Nagi so sorry to hear your news. To love a pet/mate/best friend & see them suffer is such a heart felt experience. When you’re ready read this poem, especially the last stanza, it may help in the months ahead. 🩷
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….
Author unknown…
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Dozer, may your memory be a blessing 💔❤️🩹😭♥️
Dearest Nagi .. both you and your darling little hybrid dog have always touched my soul.
Your unconditional love that you both shared was tangible.
I’m heartbroken for you !
He was so blessed to have you as his one of a kind devoted mom !
Please know that so many of us , including me sending you love and strength.
It’s going to be a huge adjustment and his void will be felt not only by you , but those who love your universal extended family
Thank you and Doser for all your passion always.
Love you Nagi xx ❤️
I am so so very sorry. It’s never easy saying goodbye to our pups – they are family. I am wishing Dozer safe passage across that beautiful bridge to a warm and sunny forever beach. May warm memories sustain you during this difficult time – my heart goes out to you.
Dear Nagi, please know that we all understand your pain and we all love you. We also loved Dozer and we knew these days were coming. And we all dreaded that we knew what you would have to go through. What else can we say, but again that we love you and we understand. Many, many hugs are coming your way today. RIP lovely Dozer.
I am so sorry, I know the feeling. Such a beautiful pup, you were lucky to have found each other. They never leave our hearts, sendng you love and comfort.