I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Song…. “Oceans”…by Liv Harland is my memory song xxx
Dozer was a dog loved around the world. I hope that your memories of your much loved pup bring some comfort as you grieve. Those of us who have loved dogs know the pain of your loss. Rest easy, Dozer. You were obviously so loved.
Dear Nagi
All of your friends on line who have loved and lost a beloved and adored companion in life understand and acknowledge the unbelievable pain you are experiencing. I am so sorry and can only say give yourself the time and grace to rest and heal in whatever or whichever way you need.
Your love for Dozer will remain firmly intact inside your heart and soul forever. So much love and gentle hugs xxx
My heart breaks for you Nagi. It hurts so much when you are so close. The grief is no different to losing a family member. I’ve just had to say goodbye to my girl too.
I’m so sorry for your loss. It is so hard to lose something so dear. We had a golden and when she was gone, there was a hole in our hearts. I’m sure you’re experiencing that now. It gets better, but never goes away. Our thoughts are with you.
You had a beautiful bond with your beloved Dozer.
You will be so sad for a very long time but heh ! what a wonderful life he had with you travelling all over being on tv and in your books and videos
Not to many pups has had such a wonderful fe as your Dozer.
So very sorry for your loss he in doggy heaven now possible cooking for all those other pups up there.RIP Dozer
RIP beautiful Dozier – Please take care of my Baby – He was probably waiting for you to cuddle up to
I am so very sorry. The pain of losing a much-loved dog is the price we pay for the unconditional love they give to us. My heart breaks for you and Dozer.
Nagi, your words to Dozer are so beautiful and heartbreaking. The photos and stories of Dozer always cheered my heart. I pray that your heart will be held and comforted as you mourn his passing. One of the hardest things to get used to is the quiet in the house without him. Take heart, the day will come when the tears remembering bring will be replaced with the joy that his life and adventures brought to you.
This was the post I was dreading. I cry along with you remembering my Charlie. I will miss hearing about Dozer. Take care and rest in peace Dozer. Sue
I am so, so very sorry for your loss, the two of you had such a special love. I wish I had words to make it less painful but I don’t there are not xoxox
Also reading this sobbing my heart out. Dogs are more than just pets. They are truely the best family members. Thinking of you so much during this tough time. Dozer was one lucky pup to call you his mummy. Sending lots of love
Tears are streaming down my face. You loved him so much and he was one in a million. I’ve been afraid for this day for a few years now as I saw he was aging. I don’t even know you, really; but your connection to Dozer was so strong that I feared your pain when he had to leave. I’m so sorry, and I wish it didn’t hurt so damned much.
Peace, sweet lady.
I cried so much reading this. I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of Dozer ❤️ Pets take up such a special place in our hearts and the sadness when we lose them is just so deep. I’m glad you could by his side until his last moments, that’s exactly what he would have wanted.
Dear Nagi. I am so sorry your beloved companion Dozer has moved on. Thank you for sharing him with us all. xxx
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 dozer wasn’t a good boy… HE WAS THE BEST BOY!!!!! Rest easy dozer, and know how loved you were by so many.💔
Sending love
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Dear Nagi, I am so sorry for your loss! Dozer was very lucky to have you as his mum. He had a beautiful life and we all will miss him too. Sending light and love to you.
I’m sure Dozer will be having a wonderful time in doggy heaven
So sorry to read about Dozer, I felt I knew and loved him too.