I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Beautiful Dozer is always with you and clearly he had the best life 🙂 My thoughts and hugs are with you xxxx
I am so very sorry for the loss of Dozer. Our fur babies are family and it’s so hard to say goodbye. How lucky he was to have had such a wonderful life and mom! Run free Dozer!
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Nagi, Dozer knew he had the best 14 years of an dog before or after. I am crying from your beautiful goodbye.
💕💕💕💕 to you and Dozer.
I’m so sorry for your loss! Dozer will be dearly missed.
So sorry for your loss, Nagi, but so happy that you had 14 wonderful years. A beautiful tribute to a beautiful friend.
Sometimes there are no words. Sending gentle hugs and a shoulder to cry on. 💔🐾💔
Sharing your loss and feeling your pain. You will be reunited one day and in each others’ arms again. Take care <3
My heart aches for you! I lost 2 parents and a dog and a cat in 1 year, and honestly, the dog was so difficult. His absence was/is ever-present. You are loved.
my heart breaks for you THANK YOU for sharing Dozer with us
Sending you a big hug, Nagi. There are no words to help you heal your broken heart at this time, but know that there are so many of us sending you our deepest condolences. Dozer had a wonderful life with you and that is the greatest gift we can give our furry family members.
I am very sorry to hear this Nagy! It must be tough on you! Take care of yourself!!
I am so sorry about Dozer. He knew how much you loved him. Hugs
Dearest Nagi, you were both so fortunate to have and love each other. True love, like yours and Dozer’s, never dies. I hope in time his memory will be a comfort to you. May the love of family and friends help you through this difficult time. Dozer is in my heart always. You, Nagi, are in my thoughts and prayers. My deepest condolences. 💔🐾
My heart goes out to you as you grieve. So difficult to say goodbye to faithful friends
May you be comforted.
We wish they could live 100 years and even that is not enough. We take them into our lives, give them all the live we have only to lose them too soon. Anyone who has owned a pet that they loved feels the same way. Give thanks for the good times you’ve had and may those memories give you peace. Thank you for sharing Dozer with all of us.
Nagi, sending you and our precious Dozer so much love and light right now. I can’t even tell you how much I loved your dog! Many years ago, I came for the wonderful recipes but honestly, I stayed for Dozer. He completely lit up my email and my day every single time he landed in my inbox. Dozer was my real-life handsome prince, so much better than a fantasy man! ; ) He was truly a part of my heart and I will miss him deeply. I am so sorry for your tremendous loss.
Nagi, I know what you are feeling; I lost my two Australian Sheppards just before Christmas this year. They were both sisters and 14 years old . Every day I walk down the stairs expecting to see them. Remember all the good times as I know you will. Let Dozer’s memory be a blessing. Don
Don
Dear Nagi, your letter and photos bring tears. I understand the devastation you feel and the hole in your heart. Dozer was lucky to have you and visa versa. He will always be with you. My sincere sympathies.
Rainbow Bridge time is the hardest thing for every pet owner. Dozer will live forever in your heart, and ours, sending love.